“The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman is seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. True beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It’s the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows, & the beauty of a woman only grows with passing years.”
Often times, when an individual gets sick, it tends to take a toll on the body. Days of vanity soon fly out the window and you become more concerned with what is happening with your health rather than whether your makeup is flawless and your hair style is of the latest trend. Soon you replace stockings and high heels for comfy sweats and tennis sneakers.
Like others who have encountered serious illnesses, I went through the “frump” stage. Sure, I was confident and optimistic that my health would get better – it was one battle that I would not give up hope on. But what I had grown uncomfortable with was the image I saw when I looked into the mirror – I had become a bit self conscience about the few pounds I had put on, especially since getting sick. It was the most weight I had ever put on. Facing a full length mirror was not an image I enjoyed seeing. It wasn’t that I wanted to be pencil thin, I just didn’t like the pear shape that stared back at me nor did I feel attractive at all let alone think that anyone else would find me attractive. I’m sure many women can relate -illness or not- that those big hips and kangaroo pouch were things many just do not enjoy seeing in the mirror. Pictures – certainly not my favorite. I didn’t totally avoid the camera all together, but I certainly tried to be the one behind the camera taking the picture. (If anyone were to look, majority of any pictures of me were taken from the chest up.)
I’ve come to realize that what truly makes you beautiful is on the inside; the way you treat, help, and care for others, the confidence you have in yourself to excel in life and the ability to put others needs before your own. It took a few reminders from some of my very dearest friends that reminded me that I was truly a beautiful and very attractive woman-personality, curves and all. I finally gained enough confidence to be comfortable with myself in the mirror as well as in front of the camera.
My struggle with weight, like many, is far from over, but at least I can say that I am now comfortable with who I am and what I see in the mirror. With confidence in myself I know I will overcome this battle too! What advice can I give to others? Regardless of your size, allow your inner beauty to shine through. Accept yourself and your body for who and what you are. Have confidence in yourself and your abilities for it is those qualities that will make you attractive to others.